Somewhere I Belong

It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb… It’s so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone..

Something has been taken from deep inside of me… a secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see…. Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away…. Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played..

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past… bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have… Sometimes I think of LETTING GO and never looking back.. and never moving forward…so there would never be a past…

If I could change I would…take back the pain I would… retrace every wrong move that I made I would…

If I could stand up and take the blame I would… If I could take all this shame to the grave I would..

Just washing it aside, all of the helplesness inside… pretending I dont feel misplaced…is so much simpler than change..

WOW!! YEAHH..!! I Love this song so much…it’s my all time favorite… good melody, smooth and easy… good lyrics… For no particular reason though.. I love this song so much.. EASIER TO RUN by Linkin Park (of course!)

And there’s another song which is my all time favorite title: ‘BREAKING THE HABIT’. Coz it is soo ME..!! hahaha… Yeah, I’m trying to get rid of my bad habits…so help me God…kqkqkqkqkq….

Uuuugghhh…finally exams are OVERR…!!! I am SOOO relieved..!! And it’s the end of classes..!! The rest of the year is thesis.. Should I be relieved or stressed?

Now I have a sudden plan to go back home…next week..!! yup, next week..!! I have to go back 3 times this year…but it’s worth it…coz it’s so stressful here…. Anyways, I hope I can book a ticket this quick….please oh please… I wasnt so sure about the 2 alternatives that I had…but I dont know why suddenly I had this 3rd alternative and I felt so sure about it…it just came all of the sudden..

My kitties…mommy’s comin home…!!!